The layers of what you can know...

I am faced with a decision right now. I realized last night that I was in my head just trying to figure it all out. The reality is that this process of 50 interviews in 90 days will only allow me to obtain answers to the things that are actually knowable. There is always going to be a fair amount of uncertainty. This then creates anxiety.

Also, even when I find this new position, cause or job there will still be pain and hard. I may even be fully engaged, but the hard will still be there. The cause will be too, which provides comfort because then it really feels worth it to me. This creates anxiety too because I probably believe or expect that a life lived with cause could be anxiety free. Yikes, this is an unreal expectation.

A few things I believe that are true here:
* I can find a position or job that has a cause I can connect with
* I can find a position that allows me to coach, mentor, have tangible goals, teach and counsel
* I can find a place that has me engaged for a greater part of my day than the lessor part of my day.
* This is truly a journey. The next big decision will not be my last. It could be just the beginning of getting closer.
* I cannot know it all. There will be uncertainty and this creates anxiety. I can handle it though.

The $ or the Cause or Both

I have great appreciation for entrepreneurs. There is great passion for their business, service model or product. Additionally, the great ones live eat and think about making sure the bottom line is healthy and that revenue is increasing. I have never felt that kind of pressure nor been in their shoes.

I kept thinking that I would eventually develop this same sense of passion within myself. I even thought that something was wrong with me because I was not "wired" that way. The entreprenuerial spirit is one that I do not feel I have in my soul.

I do feel that there is a difference in mission for the for profit and the non-profit. The non-profit keeps its doors open so that it can fulfill its mission. That could be for the arts, the poor, children, education and a host of others. If the goal is not met in the non-profit world the doors shut. If the goal is not met in the business world the doors are shut.

I would like to suggest that the mission does not continue if the doors are shut for the non-profit or the experience is no longer provided. This is true for the for profit too I am sure. I wonder if this is more about the fact that both do have mission, it is whether your heart is engaged in the mission.

Last night, I felt confused and in dispair because I was still trying to grapple and understand the distinction between the two. Perhaps, I just had not put it to rest yet the reason I need to make a transition. The key is the "cause" for me. I will continue the journey. My heart is open. I doubt that it will stop with my next career decision though.

Questions from my coach

I am glad I have a coach holding me accountable and asking me some tough questions regarding my process. There were a few questions that I was challenged with and I wanted to share them:

* What about this current role or job do you need to know before making a decision?

* If you selected this position, where would you be in five years?

* What are you afraid of?

* What other areas do I need to explore or have interest in exploring?

The concern she had was that I would not allow myself the 90 days to fully explore. In other words, if I focus to soon I may be back in a year wondering about "x or y" field or industry.

Good thoughts for sure.

She said it...

I try to not lead folks too much in my interview process. However, this President of a local museum came out and said "This is my cause" The cause being the President of the museum and the integration of education thereto.

It was a thrilling moment for me to hear those words. Sometimes, I think of being "caused" as a more mystical idea vs. a reality. I believe this interview gave me a great deal of hope and she did not realize this at the time, but she provided me some great advice.

1) You are going to get found out in life if you are not "caused" by your work. In other words, life is short love what you do.
2) Those who raise money for non-profits are able to align themselves for a time to the "cause" and the great ones have the "cause" living in their souls
3) It is a great idea to have business acument to run a non-profit. That may seem obvious, but you better have some skills.

Dan Pink: Autonomy, Mastery and Purpose

Check out Dan Pink's latest video regarding motivation and purpose.

Dan Pink Video

Thoughts or feedback...

Mindful Decision-Making

I want to thank Gretchen Rubin for her Happiness Project Tip. She shares that 80% of people aren't passionate about their work. She states that, "You have to know what makes you happy and go after it." This is called mindful decision making.

These last several weeks have been a very intentional time of thinking through how I want to work and imagining myself in those situations. Here are a few of the images I see:

* I see myself sitting across the table in 1:1 in conversations. I am listening. I am engaged. I am thrilled for that human being.

* I see myself coaching a person across the table. The person is listening, responding and is engaged.

* I see myself in a room and I am up front. My heart is racing. I am thrilled to teach and the people are engaged.

* I see my heart getting larger. Kinda like the Grinch when he hears music down in "Whoville"

* I am caused.

* I see needs being met. Some of these are tangible and some of them intangible.

What do you see when you imagine your caused life?

50 Meetings 90 Days 2 Ice Creams

During the next 90 days I will be completing jouranlistic type interviews with 50 people with the intent of learning about their personal cause. I hope to find out what gets them up in the morning and why they do what they do. Yesterday, the person I interviewed spoke of the incredible impact of her school and that is what drew her to raising money for the school. Each day she faces the poossiblility of being rejected and the possibility of gathering funds to move the school from "survival to sustainable"

My observation this week has centered around the fact that someone's life experience draws them into their life of cause. Kudos to this person for allowing herself to be impacted and now wanting to provide others with the chance to be deeply impacted.

Ironically, I went to this high school too and I thank God for it.

Oh and by the way, I had two ice creams today. I felt like I wanted to reward myself and so I did it twice. What a great day? I will pay for it tomorrow.